I had planned to write some poetry this afternoon, but, whilst searching Twitters writing prompts this morning, I stumbled upon the following ... write a 99-word story using this ending: How did I survive that?)
I may still ponder the poetic later on this evening, but for now....
'HOW DID I SURVIVE THAT'
I don’t remember how I got to my bedroom that evening with a full bottle of tablets and a pint glass of water. I don’t remember contemplating suicide, or for one single moment wishing I was dead.
I don’t remember feeling suicidal. I don’t remember wanting to die.
I do vaguely remember taking the pills.
There was no lining up of tablets like you see on TV, no thoughts, no fear, no emotion - only *nothingness*.
I tipped the pills from bottle to mouth until there were no more pills to take.
Oftentimes I wonder... How did I survive that?
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POSITIVE THOUGHT
28 years (and four children) on - I feel incredibly blessed to be here.
You lived to 'tell the tale' because you're a born writer, Kimmie and God had other plans for you, for which I and probably many many of your Twitter friends are grateful. :) xx
ReplyDeleteThat's such a lovely thing to say 'M', I'm so grateful to have you in my life
DeleteGod bless you lovely friend X
Glad you are here wouldn't have such a lovely friend, who is a special lady and mum. Xxxxx Sophs
ReplyDeleteAw Thanks Sophie, I'm glad we stumbled upon each other, you (and a few other specials) keep me going! X
Deleteas the first comment said.. God had plans for you and they didn't involve you not being here. You are such a supportive friend,,, I value you... as d many many others. Have been in that dark place and like you, look back and think...it DID get better.. xx
ReplyDeleteAw Carol, Thank you! I value your friendship too....Tis you (and my other 'not yet met, but hope to one day') friends, who keep me muddling on :o)
DeleteCatch.... *blows kiss* X
Take care 'H', Kimmie x
Hi Kimmie, visiting from #MondayBlogs. I have struggled with this same issue off and on in my life. I'm glad you survived, I'm glad you speak your truth, and I'm glad you're still here and enjoying life as much as you can.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for reading, and for your encouraging words Morgan - I'm sorry you'v struggled similarly....I hope things are more settled for you now, and hope that you also are now enjoying life,as much as you can x
DeleteOh gosh, you have a real talent. There's no way I could get that much emotion and understanding out of 99 words.
ReplyDeleteThanks for linking up with the #WeekendBlogHop
Thank you Vicky :) x
DeleteGosh, that is really powerful - as Vicky has said above me, it's quite a talent to get that much emotion into 99 words! Thanks for sharing, it's going to stick with me a long time.
ReplyDeletePopping over from #WeekendBlogHop
Thank you for popping over, and for taking the time to leave such an encouraging comment :)
DeleteAll the best to you and yours, kimmie x
I agree with the other comments. God had a different plan for you. Keep writing, stay strong. Karen x
ReplyDeleteThank you Karen :) x
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