Am I meant to endure?
Damaged ‘stock’, a drain on loved ones, a drain on the state
Existing shamefaced in a world where others live
Fight or flight? Consumed with fear
Gods disappointment
Keeper of hearts, taking care not to hurt them
La-di-da persecutors seek to destroy – hearts are threatened
Must endure!
Nabobery hoodwink the masses - ignorance permits
OCD’ torments me with 'their' words
Paranoia - fear - shame, my own mind is the oppressor’s mightiest
weapon!
Quote: "The human spirit will endure sickness; but a broken spirit who can bear?"
Run away – run and hide - panic!
Silently screaming - visibly scarred – STUCK IN SCARED
Too much to bear, unbearable now – Is this it? Am I broken? Is this what broken feels like?
Unendurable
VOID... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... crimson awareness
Welcome relief - wounded NOT broken
Xmas – I love Christmas – Random
Z – Clearly I never thought this through because despite an
extensive ‘Google’ search I found no ‘Z words’ to fit my thoughts. Fail...! o_O
POSITIVE THOUGHT
Christmas (obviously) and just above that, right at the top of my list of positives, are the much loved 'hearts in my care'.
PRAYER
Christmas (obviously) and just above that, right at the top of my list of positives, are the much loved 'hearts in my care'.
Lord, Thank you for my children, for trusting me with their hearts and for every single day (no matter how difficult that day is for me) that you wake me and bring me to them. Amen
Thank you for allowing me to share
God bless you and all those you love
Kimmie x
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Nabobery? A new one on me! May I add that you are far from being a disappointment to God? He loves you beyond words and has your heart in His care just as you tend the precious ones you love and care for. As for 'Z': Maybe you may feel you've reached the end of your tether many times, but from the 'nadir' - highest point of the heavens to the 'zenith' - lowest point of anything - God always has and still does have you covered.
ReplyDeleteMuch love and grace to you. Every blessing in Him :) xxx
Hi Kimmie,
ReplyDeleteFinally, I got here :) Despite bringing back my recollections of that ridiculous A to Z Challenge, I'm noted your posting.
We both know we have choices. Not always easy to choose the pathway that makes us happier. Yet through adversity, we find inspiration. We can turn what appears to be a negative into a positive outcome.
Like you, I'm a campaigner against the most evil government I can ever recall. They have attacked the most vulnerable in society to pay for the mistakes of the incompetent fortunate. We shall fight on and this is a positive inspiration. Not long ago, I did a political posting. Very out of character for me. Yes, like you and so many, I'm angry.
Wishing you a peaceful, positive weekend, Kimmie. We share the gift of empathy.
Gary :)
Thank you Gary, I quite enjoyed the challenge of the A-Z myself, though I wouldn't want to write with alphabetical restrictions to often it did get the old brain cells working :)
DeleteI think my emotions range between anger and despair these days, neither are comfortable emotions!
TBH the campaigning keeps me going, it gives me a distraction from despair (which at times is crippling) and a channel for my anger.
Wishing you also a peaceful, positive weekend my friend.
God bless you and yours
Kimmie x
Really enjoyed this. The A to Z restriction did not stop you from poetically and effectively communicating your thoughts.
ReplyDeleteHi Petula, I'm so glad you enjoyed reading, it was kind of you to take the time to comment - such encouraging feedback - Thank you! :)
DeleteGod bless you and yours
Kimmie x